I have been considering for some time what I could say about my best friend but nothing seemed quite right, it still doesn’t.
It has been one and a half months since you left us all and the pain is as fresh as it was that night. I thought it would get better with time but the time has been harder instead. When we first met we did not intend to become so close but rather just help each other out with a problem. Gladly we did become quite close very quickly. Our pasts were very different, our taste in music was different, and are ages even more so. But yet we could talk about anything and had fun doing anything together. Did we butt heads sometimes? Yes! But were always able to get past whatever it was and respected the others opinion even if we did not agree.
You always had an ear to lend and soothing words of advice even it was to say that everything would be okay. I am still having times when I pick up the phone to start calling you and suddenly realize that I can’t. You are part of my family just as I always felt like a part of yours. We had great holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries together. We are probably some of the few that made our husbands take us together for our anniversaries. I loved celebrating my anniversary with you and Tim. I cannot imagine what next month will be like without you there for our group date.
What laughs we had… Bingo, Euchre, the happy and angry things our children (and those we felt were our children) did, and just hanging out. Dinners at Shi Chi and the Melting Pot do not seem appealing without you. I can’t seem to bring myself to do the things we used to; it all reminds me of you. I can hear you yelling O-H, and waiting for the response I-O at the Buckeye football games.
I knew you were sick and had been for a long time. It still did not prepare me for you leaving. I was not ready for you to leave. I know it is selfish of me but it is true. The only thing that brings me some peace is knowing that you are not in pain anymore. I will never forget you. I will always love you my dear friend.